My bitTorrent application has suddenly given itself a Japanese interface! I CAN’T READ JAPANESE!!

I have the sudden violent urge to play Bayonetta.

Sorry, had to get that out of my system. It’s one of my pet peaves when people think that Charisma score in dnd has anything to do with how they look. Look up the word you dumbasses, Charisma is how well you TALK.

Yeah… the title pretty much says it all. We broke up, for those of you a little more thickly skulled. I didn’t break it off, I rarely do. But she made me feel so miserable because I could do nothing to help her, she caught me in a vicious cycle and this was the only way out. It was ultimately her decision however, I would have kept by her if she was willing to make the commitment to change into someone with even a little better self-esteem, but I guess I meant less to her than her need to hate herself… I have to wonder something though…

Am I a bad person for wanting her to change for me?

I won’t be getting any sleep tonight whatever the case…

Not even a week… not even a frickin week and it might already end. I suppose it ain’t that bad, my current record for losing a girlfriend is 14 hours so I haven’t beaten that yet. I’m texting that girl I told you about and I guess we have gotten into a little spat. She is one of those people who think that they are worthless and they suck at everything and n matter what they say you can’t make them feel better. I usually try to avoid those people because of how they make me feel when I try to make them feel better and they deny it. They make me feel Helpless, useless, like I’m not worth half a shit for not even being able to make someone feel better about themselves… I don’t understand why people have to be like that. I really don’t. What possible reason could ANYONE have for hating themselves that much? It’s a survival instinct to not think you are not attractive. If you don’t think you are attractive, you don’t mate, and mammals are intended for what? That’s right, mating. So it’s bullshit when you tell me that “It’s just the way I am” no it’s not! That is physically impossible unless you are a mental patient. The only other explanation for why people do that is because they get some sort of masochistic high for doing it, and that’s even more of a reason for me to stay away from them. Maybe they get off on people trying? I don’t know. I don’t know…

I do know this… this won’t end well.

Matrix Reloaded for rekindling my love for the two weapons, sais and the quarterstaff.